i need a diet that condones fried green tomatoes.

29 Jun

it’s june 28th and our “food money” for the month has slowly dwindled towards “how many ways can you cook an egg?” meals. so, i gotta dig deep into the freezer and literally whip something up with what i’ve got. i need substance damn-it! i have decided to go off bread and beer until i reach my goal weight (which i’ll know once i get there-if ever). notice i did not say i was going off carbs. only bread and beer, the big carb no-no’s. i recently became obsessed with everything bagels and soon realized i was having one everyday. now come on….! the first couple of days on this new venture have been rough. i am hungry. i am eating un-wiches and crackers and nuts and smoothies-BORING! oh well….i’m sick of bitching about my weight and yoga isn’t gonna do it alone.

so tonight was a combination of what i had in the fridge and rewarding myself for saying no to pizza yesterday, beer on my birthday and a bagel sandwich today. good job self. i had a pork tenderloin in the freezer that had been pre-marinated in a garlic and peppercorn rub. i cut into it halfway down the middle and flattened it out to prepare it for a stuffing. i have made pork similar to this before but instead of using cream cheese and bacon – fattening stuff – i improvised a little.

for the stuffing:

3 wedges of laughing cow spreadable cheese wedges, 2 handfuls of fresh spinach, half a white onion, 2 garlic cloves, olive oil, half a jar of sun dried tomatoes…oh! and feta cheese.

spread the cheese wedges on first all over the flattened pork. saute the onion and garlic in olive oil until slightly browned, add sun dried toms, add spinach. remove from heat and evenly spread onto pork over the already spread cheese. sprinkle feta over everything. roll it up best as you can and place into baking dish uncovered. place in oven at 425 for about 40 minutes.

i also threw in some baby carrots covered in olive oil to roast along with the pork. and of course i fried up some green tomatoes. oh how i love fried green tomatoes. and not just because of the movie, but because they remind me of tennessee – the good times in tennessee. i have a special batter i use with a secret ingredient you will only know if you come to my house i cook them for you! so come on over and get your grub on with me! and then for some filler…white rice. did the same job as mashed potatoes but was friendlier to my inner thighs. tonight was good. a good meal. try it and let me know.


Father’s Day Feast

21 Jun

well, as i stated in my last post about “red meat and potatoes”… you know, about trying to kick the habbit…yeah, not so much for this meal. i made a real “man’s meal” for my hubby on his first father’s day. the pics were taken after we chowed into it, so it is not the greatest shot…but it was a very good meal! very filling, rich and hardy. i think i may save this one for a cold winter night next time i pull it out to make again. oh – and it took all day.

for the ribs:

i used boneless, steak ribs. i let them marinate for 6 hours in a bowl filled with: 1 cup of red wine, 1/2 chopped sweet onion, a couple chopped carrots, salt and pepper, 1tsp dried thyme, 1/2 cup soy sauce, 1T sugar, 4 garlic cloves. before putting them in the oven, i let them sit out for about a half an hour. at 400 degrees, cook the ribs for about 3 hours covered. in the last hour of cooking turn ribs over, braising them with the juices and reduce heat to 350 and add pealed, cubed potatoes.

for the green beans:

cover baking sheet with foil. place 1 lb green beans and 1/2 sliced red onion on sheet and cover wit olive oil, toss to coat. bake at 450 for 10 minutes. take out of the oven and drizzle this mixture: 1T honey, 2 garlic cloves, 1T balsamic vin., 1tsp dried thyme, salt and pepper – over beans and onion. bake for another 10-15 minutes until somewhat browned and crispy. pour into serving bowl and add crushed walnuts to mix in. YUMMY!

this recipe came from simplyrecipes.com

for the blueberry cobbler:

place i pint of blueberries in baking dish. coat with 1tsp all purpose flour, 2T sugar, lemon juice and zest from half a lemon. separately – mix 1/2 cup all purp. flour, 1T sugar, 1tsp baking powder, pinch of salt. add 2 1/2T cold, unsalted butter until clumpy dough forms. add 1/4 cup milk and mix until soft dough forms. drop the dough in Table-spoon-ish portions onto the blueberries. bake at 375 until juices are bubbling around edges and dough is golden brown. top with vanilla ice cream!

– by the way, this amount made enough for two bowl fulls. got it on foodgawker.

changes i might make next time…..

– i would prefer to use my slow cooker. – i would add peas, more carrots, less wine and maybe some bay leaves. – i would serve ribs on top of some mashed potatoes made separately.

salmon. quinoa cakes.

21 Jun

i am desperately trying to shake the ol’ red meat and potatoes routine and broaden my menu with more fish, vegi based, vegan-ish dishes. here is a recipe i tried for the first time and it was wonderful. again, i got these recipes from foodgawker.com and tweaked them a little. this meal was so fresh and so satisfying. it was very easy and quick too!

for the salmon:

cut your skinned salmon fillet into cubes. place in skillet and we are not turning on the heat until the end, so hold on. add 2 chopped garlic cloves, a couple whole cloves, fresh parsley, 1 tsp dried thyme, 2T paprika, salt and pepper to taste. pour olive oil all over salmon and spices to coat. add about a 3/4 c cider vinegar and same amount of some white wine. NOW turn on the heat. bring to a slow, gentle boil. THE VERY SECOND YOU SEE THE 1ST BUBBLE, remove from heat. cover and let it steam in the juices for about 5 minutes. if some of the salmon did not cook to your liking, just add back to heat and stir continuously until cooked thru.

for the quinoa cakes:

cook 1c quinoa. add 1/2 yellow, chopped onion, 1/2c mozzarella cheese, chopped chives to your liking, 1c bread crumbs, 2 beaten eggs, 2 garlic cloves chopped. combine and form into patties. cook on med. hi until golden brown on each side.

GO and make these. NOW.

21 Jun

i found this recipe on foodgawker.com – which, by the way, is where i get all of my recipes – and it is so damn good i couldn’t find it in me to stop chewing and take a photo. you’re gonna have to trust me on this one.

here is the recipe:

1 lb ground turkey, 1/2 cup feta, 1/2 c chopped spinach, 1/4 c chopped sun dried tomatoes (the ones kept in olive oil)

OMG. they are good! i put some bbq sauce on top of mine to finish it up, but they are good just plain too!

foodgawker  — this site is great. pages and pages of recipes posted by food bloggers. enjoy!

defeating my doubts

15 Jun

the thing with practicing yoga that has been the hardest for me is not getting discouraged. i watch these beautiful women do these poses like it’s nothing. much like they might feel watching me chow down a bbq bacon cheese burger. last night i collapsed into child’s pose and cried “i’m too fat to do this stuff” at which point matt started laughing at me. okay, so i can be dramatic at times – especially when i don’t get instant results, but that is a whole ‘nother post….

there are some poses that look extremely easy. when going into the pose, i realize all too quickly that there are whole muscle groups that have never have put to use before (my shoulder/arm/chest/upper back area) . there are two poses right now that are really aggravating  my self-confidence and i only know the name of one of them, the shakti kick. i guess i’ll complain about the mysterious, nameless pose when i find out what it’s called. anyway…i found a great video about how to do this one move. it’s another sadie nardini video – she is so helpful. and today – i got it. yay! she stressed the importance of the correct placement of the shoulders. that was my problem. i love that she also explained how it took her 5 years to perfect the shakti kick.

so – check out this video and let me know how your shakti kicks are coming.

sadie nardini: shakti kicks


i’ve decided it’s time

14 Jun

have you ever asked yourself what you might do if you were put in prison? what would you do with all that time? learn a language? study law? plan an escape? or would you practice yoga? my time here in “the haute” resembles the same desperate feelings – i figure i might as well be productive while i am here and do just that – practice yoga.

i have always practiced basic yoga very casually, using it as a stress reliever with intense stretching and going to various classes every now and again. but in the past few months, i have really felt a strong desire to challenge myself and get serious about yoga. now, more than ever, i am health conscience. i am always thinking about what i put into my body because what i eat, gus eats. and what i eat, lately, has been sticking to me. i have to get rid of this baby weight. i am going nuts. i may sound a little self involved here especially after my last “self-less-ness” post….but i am sorry, i can’t take it anymore. rather than constantly complaining, poking myself in the mirror while i scarf “healthy snacks” and deviously trapping matt with trick questions late at night…i have decided to get up and get moving.  i am now a self proclaimed yogi — in the works mind you.

ballet was my thing for a long time. i danced pretty seriously (or as seriously as any teenager could get) for about 8 years. i look back at photos and wonder why i never noticed what amazing shape i was in. i gotta get back there. ballet is all about using ever single muscle in your body all at once. it builds incredible strength and such wonderful balance. at the same time you must be graceful which requires the correct breathing patterns. lucid, flowing, continuous movement. i find yoga to be very similar. although, ballet had a very different mindset. pushing yourself beyond your breaking point, working through the pain and exhaustion until you get it right, not eating (at all) so you can stay thin – ballet was not the most well rounded exercise routine for mental, emotional and physical elements working together. yoga does use all the elements together, working hand in hand.

now back to how bad “the haute” sucks….there are no real yoga studios here. and if there were, i couldn’t afford classes. so it looks like i am on my own. for the past week or so, i have been researching on line with videos i can follow along with on you tube. which! i have found to be very helpful. they are free videos and i can do it whenever i have a free moment with or without gus. he loves laying on the floor while i do poses over him…

so wish me luck on my new journey towards perfecting my poses and broadening my understandings in — YOGA.

here are some of the videos that i have been using the most. check them out.

sadie nardini  

  tara stiles

three of us

11 Jun

so, it’s been a while since i last wrote you. probably about 4 months because that is how old my baby is now. life as i knew it is gone. and i am not too sure i ever want the old life back. in fact, i cant even grasp it. everyday is new and it’s going by so fast. first he smiled, then he started laughing, soon he was reaching and grasping and now he is rolling around. we are counting the days until he learns to crawl. then it’s off to prom…i never knew i could love so hard. never have i kissed a set of toes so many times. waiting for him to go to sleep and waiting for him to wake up. in constant aw at the perfect shape of his sweet, little head. and sometimes we just lay together – that is the best. this new creation is the very definition of happiness and absolute purity. finally, i understand the concept of self-less-ness. he is first and always will be. though he is out of me and in his own skin, we are still as one.

i had planned on doing an all natural, water birth. after 10 hours of natural labor, my mother’s reassurance and a few visions of dying there on the delivery table – i caved in. thank you God for that wonderful epidural. after sleeping for the first time in 23 hours, i pushed for 30 minutes with my mother holding my left hand and my husband holding the right. the cord was wrapped around his neck 3 times, so i was told after holding him for the first time. i obviously had an amazing doctor and am so thankful he delivered my baby safe and sound. the biggest ice storm of the century hit that night. a blessing hidden in disguise….we had very few visitors and lots of time to spend with our new baby. just the three of us for three days in the hospital – with the exception of my mom who cooked us a few meals and shared shifts so matt could sleep. thanks mom.

the first 6 weeks were the absolute hardest. the hormonal explosions, total sleep deprivation, breastfeeding and realizing your life will never be the same can really get the best of you. i’ll spare you the details of my breastfeeding adventures, but i am so happy i stuck with it. seriously, after the 6 week mark, everything just started feeling normal again. i think at that point, i had to make a conscience decision to get back to life. LIFE MUST GO ON! sometimes, you just have to put the baby down and cook something! put him in the car and go somewhere. let someone hold him and take a shower. these are all simple things, but it seems so difficult to do the small tasks in the beginning. i have learned how to prioritize. when he is sleeping, i have to ask myself, “what needs done the most?” get some sleep myself? clean the house? cook food? eat food? get dressed? i used to find myself asking these questions the whole time he was sleeping out of feeling completely overwhelmed which resulted not get anything done. now, at 4 months…we are still learning, but we have mostly found our own groove. now when he sleeps i can write here. i have

set up my studio and actually work in it at least 3 times a week. i do yoga. i cook and everything else. thanks to espresso and determination i have rediscovered my productive and creative self again. and yes, i do take naps with the ‘lil man at times.  i am even able to leave him now for a couple hours if i need some time – you know – alone or with other adults or with a stiff drink. these times are rare and very treasured. the grocery store is my haven. truly.

and here’s the really funny part. i want more babies. i cant wait to have some more. and more and more and more.

until next (nap) time…..